Fighter.

Hello readers! All 35 of you to be exact, according to the stats that blogger gave me about my last post. I am extremely flattered. :) Keep it up!! I like thinking that someone enjoys hearing about my life..

Anyway, the topic of discussion tonight is being a fighter. As I was sitting in my first economics class today I thought about this. While stats and benefits vs. costs spun through my mind, I had the idea of giving up. You know, the whole idea of running away and leading this fantastic life where nobody has a clue who I am and won't ask me to do anything that has to do with books. Great plan.. if I wanted to end up working at Walmart my entire life. Nothing against it, but you know. But then I reminded myself of something: I AM a fighter. I don't quit because things get hard. I don't back down. I focus all my energy on that one thing that I would just love to walk away from, because I know it's something worth pushing for. Now this sounds great, right? Like wow, congratulations because nobody cares, is what you're probably thinking. I have a point! Hang in there. While I am a fighter, in the sense that I don't let go and remain focused, it's not always the best thing. In fact, it's actually bad all on its own. 

With people, school, work, and anything else in life for that matter, this is a recipe for disaster. Like hurricane Isaac disaster. Actually that's exactly what my life feels like when I do this. Consider this, Exodus 14:14 - "the Lord will fight for you; you need only be still." Now for control freaks like me, this is terrible news. Like who the hell wants to just sit still and meditate and think everything's going to be ok?! I mean I can totally handle losing people I love, moving into massive building of small closets for drama filled 18 year-olds, and rigorous college courses all on my own. No prob. Sit back and relax God 'cus I've got this shit handled. FAIL. I've decided that I can't anymore. So while still being a fighter, I've decided to fight my battles and then let them be. I'm going to give all of this another shot, because obviously me being a bull-dog works reeeeal well. I'm deciding to trust that my fight is enough, and that GOD will take it to the next level. 

Now I'm sure you're all wondering where this came from. Way out of left field, trust me. But I mean Einstein said that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over agin and expecting different results. People are going to be how they want and grades are going to be what they will be. It's not worth my sanity.This may or may not be right, but either way I don't want to be labeled insane (HA). Thus, I'm trying something else. Fighting a new fight. 










Enough of that heavy boring stuff. Here is a picture of the absolute HIGHLIGHT of my day. 

Yep - that's my treadmill, equipped with a full TV. Nothing like a little Toddlers and Tiaras to pep up your workout! Love love love. It's the little things in life. :)

Day One.

Wow. Today was the start to my crazy new life here, and it was definitely that - CRAZY! Allow me to elaborate.. The day included: awkward get to know you games, friendship bracelets, saying your name, hometown, and major 100,000,000 times, eating amazing chicken kiev, getting told laniards aren't meant to be worn around your neck, becoming an officially "pinned" Bennie, meeting up with the nuns.. the list could go on. Overall it has been exhausting. However, it's also exciting. Without the feelings of insecurity and craziness I think that I would never expand from where I am now. This gives me a little comfort when I walk around with an invisible sign that says "FRESHMAN" written on my forehead. Wait.. it's not invisible, I have to wear a damn name-tag everywhere I go. Not awkward at all. It can only get better from here! 

Even though I do feel quite all over the place at the moment, there is one thing I know for sure: the goals and expectations of this school are more than amazing. While they are challenging, it sparks an inner fire within me to push myself to a new level - to be a better and more refined me. They do not just ask you to be leaders in this community, they expect you to fill the position. The faculty, RA's, and even the nuns are standing behind me, fully expecting me to become whomever I believe I want to be. I love that! I want to be so much better than the person I am now - academically, spiritually, and emotionally - and they're here to make sure that happens. Cool. With that said, Wednesday's classes should be interesting. I might now have any time to actually write this new blog.. So if you don't hear from me I'm just off conquering the world thru my economics, accounting, theo, and FYS classes. 

Well that's all the deep lingo I've got for tonight.. here's a few pictures of my dorm to suffice. Pictures are worth a thousand words right? Nailed it.

Oh yeah and here's me BEFORE I unhealed a car load of stuff in 90 degrees. Happy move in day!